Back To Windows

Well for about 2 weeks I’ve been running different distros of linux because:

• My Windows XP Home Edition SP2 install was pretty much destroyed
• I was growing tired of Microsuck
• I wanted a reason to test out the BackTrack 2 OS
• Because I can

After all that though, I found myself downloading the Windows XP Professional SP2 CD ( I have a valid CD-key just not the CD) and installing Windows all over again. The major reason why I came back…. no Windows support. Now many would tell me to simply use a virtual Windows XP install, I did that for a while… I only have 512mb RAM so emulation was slow and only really 256mb of RAM on the Guest OS which means online gaming was out of the question.
ReactOS seemed quite promising actually and I might test it out. Open-Source AND Windows support, now THAT is an Operating System for me. I’ll be writing a review about it later on whenever I get the time and pretty much feel like it. Hopefully I become a faithful ReactOS user.
My question for my readers (however limited you guys/girls are) is: Would you ever try another OS besides Windows, and if so which OS would it be and why?
Hope to hear your answers soon,
-Two Ez

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The Bug Guy.

Well recently I have gotten into entomology which is defined as “Entomology is the scientific study of insects. Insects have many kinds of interactions with humans and other forms of life on earth, so it is an important specialty within biology.” by Wikipedia. Basically what this means is that I like bugs and I study them.

A major factor in Entomology is obviously insects. I am quite interested in Scorpions, Tarantulas, Mantids (Mantises), Beetles, and any other crazy thing I can find. At the current time I am fortunate enough to have 2 different insects.

1. Female Red Velvet Ant “Cow Killer” (Dasymutilla occidentalis)
2. Yellowstriped Army Moth Caterpillar

I am always looking for more so if you have anything that you could donate either get back to me by comment or email me at jestersniper@yahoo.com with subject “Bug Donation”

Well sayonara for now.

One last cut can’t hurt…

As the hours pass I am unable to sleep,

These are the nights I fear the most.

These are the nights where you really learn about yourself,

Where you have time to analyze life.

As I look down onto my arms, my wrists,

My bicep, my legs, the back of my knees…

Every line has a story to tell,

These stories seem to spawn from hell.

My hand trembles as I feel the cold touch of steel touch my skin. What a painful pleasure. An addiction I tried to break but never separated myself from; the broken pieces still hanging on for dear life. One little cut, that’s all I need… no one will know. I’ll make sure of it. Nice and small, right there, right behind the knee, no one will ever see. Oh how the razor taunts me, speaks to me. “Come on, one last time for old times sake. You’re a good liar, you’ve lied about the mysterious cuts, scratches, scars, strangulation marks, you’ve lied about them all before. I taught you how to lie. I taught you quite well. So how about it..? One last time? For me?” I have to stop myself. I can’t fall back into what I once was… I can’t go back to that night, the night I almost went too far… the night…

I quickly searched my dad’s toolbox. Where the hell is it? I know he has a box cutter here somewhere; I’ve used it before. Ouch! Dammit, I found the box cutter. I suck my finger tasting the sweet, sweet blood knowing soon there will be more to feast on…. MUCH more. I quickly pocket the box cutter and walk slowly to my room. As I open the door I smell the isopropyl alcohol, the slight smell of butane gas also fills my nostrils. As I flame sterilize the blade I fantasize about the feeling, how I will feel after releasing this pain. How I will feel once the endorphines come rushing out to release pain, stress, tension. How the endorphines will make me happy once more, make me happy enough to make it. Make it another month… Empty promise, I know it is. I’ll be lucky to last a week tops without this sweet drug, this synthetic high. Oh well, the future doesn’t matter, all that matters is now. All that matters is the pain I feel NOW, not later.

The alcohol turns to steam and sizzles as it touches the red hot blade further sterilizing it and in turn cooling it. 1…..2..slice. Cringe. The razor still held firmly in my hand. Mmm, sweet satis….what… where is it?!?! Where is my high?!?! I don’t want to chase my times prior but I just nee–slice. Slice. Slice, slice, slice. Ahhh. The warm blood trickles down my arm as I hold it up to my mouth to feast. Mmmm yes, the life force is so sweet. Too much, I want to throw up now. I shouldn’t still be bleeding. What the fu— too many too deep. Oh god, I’m going to die aren’t I. I have bitten off too much this time haven’t I? Getting weaker… I turn off the Bunsen burner, wouldn’t want a death AND a fire. I crawl my way to my sewing kit and pull out a leather needle and some thread. I crawl to my bed and yank my sheets. The pillow hits the ground. This will be my resting place if I don’t succeed.

I stitch myself up like a master seamstress. Getting cold. Really cold. Darkness is setting in, Thanatos is that you? Please send a reaper to do your bidding. I’ve always wanted to feel the cold androgynous kiss of a Grim Reaper. I can’t keep my eyes open much longer… my world…

is

going

…

I wake up a few hours later. My self stitching saved my life. Where is that hoodie; I need to hide these wounds. That was fun, I’ve gotta do this again I promise myself. As for now, I’m hungry. I hope dinner is cooked…

Finally the Internet is back…

Well I lost internet for a few days but my dad managed to Social Engineer our ISP and get them to give us internet again, pretty badass eh? Well because of what happened today I have decided I would start a Social Engineering tip/tut of the week(maybe month) to get beginners started. I am going to talk to xyr0x about it since he is one of the greatest Social Engineers I know of. Well this blog post is going to be cut short because I’ve got stuff I have to do.

Take care,

2 Ez

Bondage For Beginners Part 1

Bondage is a way to deprive submissive of the body movements which creates special feelings. I would say the thrill of a sub part comes from the feeling of helplessness and vulnerability. What can be most appealing to a sub who urges to give in to power of a dom?

I would recommend beginning with trying bondage as a fetish game. First, it gives an opportunity to get into sensations and define more clearly for yourself the border between comfortable and uncomfortable feelings. Second, you will be able to set the limits of further “full-dress” encounters. For instance, you may prefer rope bondage to spreader bars and partial to full-body bondage. This is a matter of individual taste and your own readiness to go to the core of the matter.

Step-by-step education is actually the best tactics for first-timers. Of course, much of the responsibility rests with dom, but sub has a control on another level too in terms of ruling the game according to his submissive desires.

Taking into account the fact that bondage can range from simply aesthetic erotic play till a more serious edge play, you will need to follow basic safety rules to perform bondage play properly:

1. Comfort

However equivocal it may sound, bondage has to be comfortable enough and it shouldn’t border on really dangerous things. You should always leave the room for emergency escape from bondage.

2. Safe words

This rule is a necessary condition for bondage, to set out those very limits and stop the game that passes the line of safety. I like to choose safe words that are neutral by meaning and I can be sure this word won’t anyway be uttered under any circumstances. The most popular safe words are colors (red for stop) and numbers.

3. Safe toys

Of course, all toys can become dangerous when used improperly, but some general precautions are necessary to avoid injury. Leather cuffs are best for beginning a fetish play and are considered less risky than metal cuffs for instance.
From : Bondage Guide

Pain As An Erotic Pleasure

Aug 03, 2007

For many people pain is seen as a negative thing or something that cannot be completely avoided but one that should be learned to cope with. We do not usually seek for pain and it may sound unusual to understand how a person can derive pleasure from pain. However, pain is one of the most desirable thing for S/M lovers.

So what is the purpose and why pain makes a day for those who are involved in S/M? Bottom is the one who enjoys to be tortured, the feeling of pain and suffering is sweet, and top is the one who urges to inflict pain (not without bottom’s consent).

First timers need to learn what are the limits they are ready to accept for S/M sessions. Very often a bottom wants a particular pain for example from the blood play. It doesn’t mean he will endure or accept pain from burns, but as he learns different types of BDSM plays he experiences various sensations where pain becomes the top motivation.

Enjoying pain is about looking at it from different perspective. Pain is natural and you can not only endure it but also see it as an erotic stimulant. A bottom who is getting the pain often would say that it gives incredible intensity to all his sensations and relief that follows the torture session cannot feel better.

Pain control

In order to sustain pain and enjoy it longer during BDSM session, bottom needs to learn pain control methods.

One of the most easiest ways to get the pain right is to breath deeply during a session. This increases your endurance and do not give the unnecessary restrain saving your energy for longer time.

You may also use your imagination while receiving pain. You will understand that it is all in your mind and you can imagine yourself a slave who gets his usual punishment. The setting often plays a great part to make the scene look more attractive and realistic.

Distraction from the pain can also be necessary when hard play can be difficult to sustain. You can either look at the setting or focus on something either visually or emotionally. Sometimes concentrating on another sensation works well too. For example, hot and cold play temperatures can ease pain for some time and you may ask the top to apply this technique when the pain is unbearable.

The main thing for the bottom in order to enjoy pain is to let it flow inside and accept what you really wanted resisting as long as possible.

Credits go out to Bondage Guide

New Toy

So I managed to acquire a DVD/CD Burner/Player and I’m quite happy with it. Sadly my computer has been a bit rude to me lately and thus I can’t just double click on my D:\ when I have a blank CD in there. Oh well, that is what InfraRecorder is for. Well sayonara.

Need to know your IP Address?

If you are like me, you need to frequently check what your ip address is so that you can set up web servers, private video game servers (this is illegal and I used it as an example. ONLY an example), making sure I’m actually behind a proxy, ect. Well here is a website which will do just that, tell you your ip address. There is a catch though… it’s a hot babe who MOANS your ip address to you. If you are younger than 18 I advise you to make sure your parents won’t get mad if they hear a sudden moaning coming from your computer.

Moan My Ip

Skating buddies?

Well I was eating lunch today at school when I saw Rod right behind me. I turned around and said “What’s up” and shook his hand. Suddenly after Vic comes up behind me and is like, ” Yo Lui you skate?” I eagerly responded with a, “Yea, you?” Without even answering my question Victor says, “Sweet, lemme get your number so we can skate some time!” I later learned from Alicia that Victor skates but he hardly ever has anyone to skate with. A plus for me is that I get to skate more often, and now I won’t have to be that “lone skater” kinda guy.

Besides that school was pretty cool, it wasn’t even difficult. I gave Sandman his new Gas mask so I am hoping he enjoys that and posts some pics of it on his flickr soon. Hopefully I can get a 10k fists pic from him as well.

I learned just yesterday that Sheldon is totally into photography so I guess a got a photography buddy now. It seems we both want a Canon Rebel XTI, ah dreams…

I’ve got a pin on my Penis envy casing but I think it might be the only one I get though I want to start agar work so it will be nice just to start making the “perfect” sub-strain. I am aiming for some contam proof sub-strain. Also I think my WBS jar might have cobweb mold on it :’(. My Z-strain casing had to be flipped but I think it will do just fine now. That will be the last time I forget to let my casing layer colonize first before putting it in the grow chamber.

Well, that’s all I guess, PLEASE try to spread the word of the 10k fists project as well as this blog. Thanks =3.

TC,

2-Ez

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Now playing: The Used – Hospital
via FoxyTunes

1st day of school….

Well school wasn’t too bad I guess. Shardy’s old friend Rodrick is there but I sense some tension in the air around them. I’ve got a few strict teachers which I am going to like since they will keep the “others” nice and settled. I’ve gotten the Infamous “Bitch” of Maynard Evans Highschool, dum da-dum-dum Ms. Shwartz although for some reason I like her…. dunno why.

Anyway, my Multicultural Studies class (which I am going to switch out for something else) teacher has no idea what to do in his own class, nor how to teach it, it doesn’t help that he isn’t the Multi. Cult. teacher… they just gave him the class. Whatever, I won’t be there long anyway.

I didn’t get into AP Studio Art because it would conflict with one of my core classes which also happens to be an AP class. Eh, its ok, I didn’t really want to be in that class anyway.

On the bright side of things, I don’t absolutely hate anyone new this year…. yet. Though just the site of Mr. Matt Knowles is enough to make me want to make him asphyxiate on his on bile, though not even that will be too good for him.

Mr. Naso, my Algebra II teacher is so totally awesome and I just know I will enjoy his class. All my other teachers (except Mr. Crawford) seem easy going as well.

Luckily we get out of school earlier now, around 2:15pm . No major “group” for me this year though, just me and Shardy again, it’s good to have friends…. just not to many , I have one.

Well, I am typing too much, I’d rather not hasten my carpal tunnel (spelling on that one?) so I’ll catch you later guys.

Take Care,

2-Ez

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Now playing: Cobra Starship – Send My Love To The Dancefloor, I’ll See You In Hell (Hey Mister DJ)
via FoxyTunes